I don't get it...

This could be just because I need sleep and I am just over tired and all of that but... I feel slightly odd now that my year of closeness is over. I have been fine until most of us came together again. I don't like the feeling I got. I was hoping for a warm fuzzy feeling... Instead it was the opposite. It felt cold and dark. I don't get it. What was wrong? We aren't in the bubble anymore but why did it change just for this moment? I just don't understand it.