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Thursday, August 17, 2006

Thoughts of the day

Summer is almost done. Where did it go? Even though summer is coming to a swift ending, I also have this excitement building up in me. The fall is a beautiful season. I love the leaves changing color and falling. I also love wearing sweaters and vests. The fall also means the start of events such as school and etc. Summer was great though. It was very much needed and very much enjoyed. Many more great memories packed into my mind and heart. I am eagerly awaiting the fall but enjoying the rest of the summer. I hope you all fully enjoy whats left of summer.

Friendship means a lot to me. Sometimes I think it could mean a bit too much. I was reading in Galatians and one verse in the first chapter struck me hard. In chapter one and verse ten says, "Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ." I sat there wondering where my focus was. I can't say I have been 100 % seeking Gods approval. I wish I was! But that verse is very direct and wow. BAM! It is hard to take. It is so hard to not find approval from either parents, friends, and just people in general. There is this desire to want to impress people. Even at work there is pressure to impress. Impressing people may come as we seek the approval of God but could also have the opposite effect on people. They may not like the ways we are acting to seek approval from God. For example, my boss really wanted me to work on sunday just to pick up a shift for someone. For me, I have set that day aside as a day of rest and fellowship. Getting more money ran through my head which is something I need since I got sick today and lost some hours. It was very tempting. I said no, but she kept persisting and I let down my boss. Thats not exactly something that I want to do. The example may not be the best one but it kinda shows how hard it can be and why it is so easy to just seek the approval of men.

I find trusting in God alone is really really tough. I find I get caught up in my own life and forget to trust God or talk to Him about things. Being a Christian isn't easy. But it is the best descion I have ever made. It is so nice to have God there with me every step of the way. I know He is always there even when I make a fool out of myself or say the wrong thing. It stresses me out about how many people don't understand to choose God. But thats a whole other topic.

I hope I haven't bored you with my rambling thoughts. I know not many read this blog but it is kinda nice for me to form my thoughts and rap my mind around what I have been thinking. If you could, could you tell me if you do read my blog? Because if it is no one then I think I might just make a journal instead! Ha ha! I have never been great at journaling but oh well!

I hope you all have a splendid rest of your summer and have a joyous start of a new season in life.

Lots of love.

Friday, August 04, 2006

Rain...

Isn't the rain cool! I love it! It provides lovely time for sleeping. The sound is just so peaceful. I love to go walking in the rain and jump in puddles. I guess rain isn't the best way to start out a week of camp or end off a week of camp but oh well! It is pouring and my pal jazzy and me are heading up to camp. We are leading the VBS and we are a bit nervous. We don't know how many kids will be there or how many familys will be there. At the same time, I can't wait to be up there in the trees and next to the river. It is so peaceful to be out of the city. Ah... Lovely. Camp is so awesome. God just seems so much closer when you are out in nature. It gives us a great chance to marvel at His creation surrounding us. It includes the nature and the people. Especially the kids. We are almost all prepared to go.
Oh the rain. It is quite refreshing as camp is as well.