Music

I love music. I love it and find I need it. I love the sound of an acoustic guitar and a voice singing along. Something about it is just mysterious and full of passion. Those who are blessed with the talent, use it. Those who are not, we will listen and thoroughly enjoy it. Wayne said that for him, loud music is soothing to his soul. I find that I can identify with it. I love to sing along (by myself of course) while driving and just belt it out. I find that I am almost closer to God when I have listened to some music and sang out loud. It is that mysterious feeling of something bigger and more powerful than I can ever be. I feel as if I am in His presence. Maybe I might just be nuts but oh well. I think God can use a tool, such as music, to show His greatness and presence. This picture that I have added shows a peace that only God can give. He shows His greatness in many different ways. We just have to be open to seeing them and give God the glory. Look around you and see the different ways He gives you peace to your soul.

Goin' to the chapel...

It has begun. The first first cousin on my dad's side is now married. She now has a house of her own and a husband. It astoundes me! It also scares me. It was a wonderful wedding and weekend but at the same time, we aren't kids anymore. Things won't be the same as they were back in the day. We may grow apart and move away. It is a scary feeling. I am not sure if I completely like it. Of course I am super happy for Jessica and Erin (which is soon another cousin to be married), but I miss them already. Change is hard for me I am realizing. I know it will happen but there are emotions that follow. I am eagerly awaiting a reunion of our family all together again where we can have those moments to remember. I will get used to this change that is occuring in these years to come. It just may needs some hugs on the way.
These years to come will be a big change in my life but I am sure it will be even weirder for the younger cousins who don't have all of the same memories of when we all hung out together.
I do believe that change is good, don't get me wrong. I love the fact that my cousins found good companions that will love them forever. I am excited for the day, if the Lord willing, that I may find that kind of love. I do trust that God will bring it when it is time. So for now, content is what I must stay and eager for the future of love and reunions.

Starfield

By the way... If you haven't heard the new starfield cd, perhaps you should. Its good. If someone tells me or teaches me to put music on here I would.. But for now, you will just have to listen to it some place else! I hope you enjoy the music if you hear it!

Full

I am so full of excitement right now. I am excited that the Oliers WON!!! yay! I am excited for Steph going on her trip, Jess's wedding in Kelowna, Seeing all the cousins and such, More hockey parties, Focus on Worship (feels like it has been a long time!), CAMP!!!, Getting a NEW job, Lauren's wedding, And just everything right now. I just am full of excitement and I love it! Maybe it is just joy, but I think it could all be because of God. I feel at peace. I know that He is behind it all. God is so awesome. The new things he bring every day and all the blessings are so amazing to me. Ah... How Happy... :)

Maybe I got too much sun today... :D

I don't get it...

This could be just because I need sleep and I am just over tired and all of that but... I feel slightly odd now that my year of closeness is over. I have been fine until most of us came together again. I don't like the feeling I got. I was hoping for a warm fuzzy feeling... Instead it was the opposite. It felt cold and dark. I don't get it. What was wrong? We aren't in the bubble anymore but why did it change just for this moment? I just don't understand it.

Me

This is me. I don't know what other way to show you who I really am. A goal of mine is to be real. Being who you really are is extremely tough when you do not know yet who you are. I do believe that you learn who you are through experiences but at the same time, feeling confident in this state of beinging can be felt by knowing who you are. You change from day to day and grow all the time but there is a need to be knowing. How do I find this confidence that I am longing for is a mystery for me in the present day. I know I was sure of who I was when I was a child, but now, things have changed and feel different. I feel less confident in who I am but at the same time, know that I am someone.